Distances...

I've always felt a sense of distance in a soul. One is the self and the other is the entity that it longs to be.The distance and the desperation will always remain for the fact that these two can never be one. Longing grows at every stage and it comes earnestly. The soul doesn't live in tranquility. There's always a mad rush to reach somewhere else and dances to rhythmic patterns of life. The plethora of feelings that it goes through is complicated and i can never see a conclusion in my case. It remains blank for a while and builds up to confusion in many ways.

However there are days where one cant really figure out these feelings and probably the day one does it could be one of his happiest days of life. Having said that, soul is always in need of something. Even achieving tranquility would be that 'something'. Can it just exist without any feelings,motion or senses? Is it possible to hypothetically defy the law of gravity and not feel any weight of the soul?(thanks to kundera for triggering off this thought) It could and it could not.

Why do we feel the weight of the soul? Possibly due to too much of any emotion. Would it not then be possible to have a moderation. Although we show moderation for certain feelings it is not what we feel. I think either we feel strongly about things or we detest them or not feel anything at all. But keeping it in moderation is for daily survival of the soul and the world runs on this principle in a way.

first thoughts

Thoughts randomly flow at times..there's no particular systematic pattern unless you plan to give it a pattern. And i like the way they just come running and unleashing their forces on one's mind. You really can't escape them even if you want to divert your attention to something else which in other words would be escapism.First thoughts are like dew drops on a tender leaf which has just come into being.

These are the thoughts which actually would depict one's state of mind. They are what the person stands for..Untouched and pure, they reflect a person's true being in a way. Perceived originally and inspired by natural instincts they are honest. Then slowly thinking upon it and further developing it grows and multiplies like some fission reaction. I like the pictorial depictions that neurosurgeons use to explain the reactions. The thoughts hop from one node to another like that in a multihop network in wireless mobile communications. But there's one big difference between the analogies drawn here. As there are final destinations in a neurological network or a wireless network there seem to be no final destinations for thoughts. They just keep flowing and triggering with no intentions of stopping.

And it is quite fascinating that no two people will have the same kind of first thoughts at a time ..there may be similarities but not exactly the same. There would be a million new thoughts developing every second and if they could be assimilated somehow imagine the revolutionary result..I think the possibilities of creating something new would be tremendous. Could there be a way to get them together at one instant?